Friday 29 March 2019

This week my Word of the Week is: Mother! #WotW

This week my Word of the Week is:

For years and years I have been very bitter towards mother's day. I felt so envious of those who had a relationship with their mothers. This time of the year has always been hard for me and left me feeling down. I think I have complained every year on Twitter about all the competitions where you have to say why your mother is the best or why you love her so much. Ugh! They used to make me feel angry.

For the last 13 or so years of my mother's life I did not have a relationship with her. Way back in 2014 I wrote about how I didn't have a mother, I did but we both wanted nothing to do with each other. She ran away with a man she met online and her and the new boyfriend made me choose between my mother and my dad. There was no choice, I chose my dad. It's been over 2 years since my mother passed away. I wasn't sad that she had died but wouldn't have wished cancer or death on her. Her death did give me closure but it left me feeling so bitter about mother's and mother's day.

This year in the run up to this mother's day I don't feel resentful of those who have mother's. For the first time I feel happy for them. If you have a lovely mother cherish and love her. I am at a point now where I am happy for you. I am feeling very positive towards mothers day this year, for the first time in years.

The competitions on Twitter haven't bothered me this year, in fact I have entered some. I really think it's all because I have Sarah, my dad's girlfriend. Since spending a few days over Christmas with her and getting to know her better I feel closer to her. We chat on the phone and text all the time. I don't think I will ever call her mum, mam or mother but she's as good as one. 

 She's there when I need her, she's there when I don't want her but need her without admitting it and sometimes she is there when I don't even think about her but a text or phone call really puts a smile on my face or makes me laugh! She is as good as a grandmother to the girls and most of all she is a companion for my dad. If he's happy, I am happy.

The kids and my fella have been very organised this year and got my mother's day cards and presents last weekend. I know I have new pj's! Hooray! Chocolates and Ellie says a duck? I have no idea what that's all about. lol The kids have said they are going to go to McDonalds and get me a breakfast to have in bed. I am sure it's just because they want it themselves but if it gives me a bit of a lie in I am happy with that and Stu said he's going to cook lunch/dinner.

I hope you all have a wonderful Mother's Day on Sunday!


  1. I'm so glad that you are feeling more positive about Mother's Day this year. Your dad's girlfriend sounds like a lovely lady. Hope you have a lovely Mother's Day x #WotW

  2. This year must feel like a turning point for you. I'm so pleased for you. Also glad that Mother's day is no longer tinged with negative thoughts. Sarah sounds amazing and it must be great that she has come into all your lives. Have a lovely weekend. Laughing at the thought of them buying you breakfast. It is for them really, right? #wotw

  3. I can relate so much to your feelings, I fell out with my Mum for five years. Now she's no longer here, but I do miss her. I hope you have a really special Mother's Day and thanks for linking up to #wotw xx

  4. I have a very similar history with my mum to you Kim, she passed away five years ago and nobody got in touch to tell me, I found out myself. I used to feel the same as you then a few years ago I decided to focus on what being a mum meant to me and decided to celebrate the fact that I was lucky enough to be mum to four amazing kids. Shifting my perspective helped me so much. I'm glad you have your Dad's partner to chat to, she sounds lovely. Happy Mother's day to you x

  5. I remember reading the post about your mother, I could sympathise, because of my nan. I'm glad you've found some peace this year, and your fathers partner sounds fantastic! I hope you have a wonderful Mother's day xx

  6. mothers are complicated creatures. I try to be what I consider a better mum to my daughter Violet, but every now and then I say or do something and think 'oh my god, I sound like my mum' and I cringe. We all want that special relationship with our mums, but I don't have that either. I should ask my sister what it's like to have it!!! xx

  7. I'm so glad that you feel you can enjoy Mother's Day this year. You have been through a lot so it's no surprise that it left a bitter taste. At least you have Sarah now, who sounds lovely.
    I hope you have THE best Mother's Day, because you are awesome and totally deserve it. xxx

  8. Ah Kim I am so sorry that happened to you that is so cruel to try to make you choose, you have to remember that you are an amazing mum and that is what you should be celebrating, but I am so glad you have felt better this year and have Sarah in your life x