This week my Word of the Week is: Anxious! #WotW

This week my Word of the Week is:

I try to keep my Word of the Week positive but this week I feel like I have been drowning in anxiety. Life isn't all sunshine and roses and we all can't have a good week every week. I have always been a worrier but usually I can push those feelings to the back of my mind but this week they have come to the front and I have been trying to work through my thoughts and rationalise them.

It all started on Saturday morning, I didn't sleep well and I think it all went downhill from there. I always feel on edge when I haven't had enough sleep and I feel like I haven't slept properly all week because of the weather. As of writing this we have had 2 storms and the wind is another worry for me. I always think that the fences are going to blow down in the back garden and then I will have to deal with our not so nice neighbour. Then there is the worry that it is so windy that the Humber Bridge closes to traffic and Stu can't get to work or most worrying can't get home from work. I have been constantly checking the bridge website and so far it's only been closed to high sided vehicles.

Then we had Monday and the drama with someone with the same name as me contacting other bloggers about guest posts. People assumed it was me as even though they weren't pretending to be me they were using my name which isn't very common. It really stressed me out, I didn't want others thinking it was anything to do with me. I also had a couple of other blogging things going on which on a normal day wouldn't have stressed me out but when it all came at once, in the space of an hour it was just too much. An amazing blogger friend was there at the end of a message offering support and advice, I am so grateful she was there to talk sense to me and even checked in on me on Tuesday then there was the ladies in the blogging groups where I asked for help which reassured me.

Ellie got off to a good start wearing her hearing aids a year ago but over the last 6 months or so she has been wearing them less and less. I nag at her and she will put them in when she leaves the house and then takes them out as soon as she is outside. She can't explain why she doesn't want to wear them apart from she prefers not to. She doesn't like being deaf in one ear but at the same time she went 15 years like that and it's that is what she's used to. We have an appointment coming up with Audiology at the hospital to see how she is getting on and I am dreading it. She's 16 so I can't force her to wear the hearing aids but she's 16 and I feel like the specialists will think I should make her wear them. There's that saying you can lead a horse to water but you can't make it drink which springs to mind. I need to stop stressing about it, Ellie is doing really well in life without wearing hearing aids, I think I am just going to have to accept we tried and they are not for her despite what the experts might say.

As anxious as I have been I have been looking after myself with having early nights, eating properly, plenty of pampering showers and baths and I've been taking time away from social media and blogging, thank goodness I have been organised with my blogging and had posts scheduled for this week. 

I wrote this yesterday and I am starting to feel more positive and less anxious. I think it was just one of those weeks. We all have them even if we don't always blog about them and share how we are feeling.

How has your week been? I hope you have had a good one.