Thursday, 21 November 2019

Today's the day that I turn 40.

Today's the day that I turn 40. I have been looking forward to turning 40 and have no fear about it. I am hoping that this is the year that I no longer get asked for ID at the local Tesco when I go to buy my wine. 

I did have a hissy fit on Tuesday. I woke up feeling rotten, run down and stressed. I shouted at Stu that I was going to be poorly for my birthday, my birthday would be ruined. I cried and I spent the day feeling pretty down in the dumps. I cancelled the birthday cake I ordered from Asda and the nice bottle of wine. Told you, total hissy fit! I was being a drama queen.

 It was all down to worrying about Ellie's heart check up at the hospital. It turns out I had nothing to worry about. Her heart is as good as it's ever been. There's still the leaky valve but there was no change since last year. She's back in 18 months. As soon as the appointment was over I instantly felt better and happier again!

It has got me thinking about how one thing never changes with me, I think I will always be a worrier. There is way's that I have changed over the last year though.


I have hit that age now where I am a nightmare to buy presents for. Stu asked weeks ago if I wanted a new dressing gown and I said no, even to a Harry Potter one. I have a perfectly good one which does the job! Why buy something just for buying's sake! I have become that person! If I need something I buy it when I need it. I've became sensible in my 39th year.

I did however tell Stu that he needs to buy me 40 presents for my birthday with it being my 40th and he has!! Some of them are daft cheap one's from the pound shop or 50p things but there is 40 for me to open. I'm so impressed.

I used to be a people pleaser, going along with things I didn't really want to do because I didn't want to offend of upset someone. Now if I don't want to do something I just say so. I have found that people respect me more for being honest and telling them why I don't want to do something than make up some rubbish excuse.

I used to care a lot about what people thought about me, I was stuck in a rut with what I wore, how I had my hair, how I spoke, who I spoke to and everything else inbetween. Over the last year I've learned to be me. I've figured out that I don't need to dress to impress people but to dress to make myself happy, If it's hot out I will wear a strappy vest top and not care about my bingo wings and if it's cold I will wear a woolly hat and not care! I might look like a right muppet but I know I am a nicer person if I am not moaning about being cold. lol


It might be a bad thing but I have less patience with people. Over the years I have given people chance after chance and I've been let down time and time again. Now I am about halfway through my life, I don't have time to waste waiting for people to do what they say they're going to do. My dad's partner Sarah think's I am hilarious because I don't put up with people's drama and silliness! Life is too short to waste time on people who mess me around.

I have started to like doing the housework! Madness, I know! I think it's since we've moved house. I feel more settled here, there's more room so everything seems less cluttered and everything has it's place. I will happily spend all day deep cleaning the house and I will be so satisfied when it is done. I get it now. It's taken me 40 years to feel this way and I'm glad I do! I never thought I would be that person who got excited about cleaning products but I am. hehehe

I have found a love for candles. I have never been a big candle lover but over the last few months I can't get enough of them. I have also got into using wax melts too. My family all hate them but I think all the one's I've used so far smell amazing!

It's strange, I'm 40 and still don't feel like a real adult. I feel like I am winging this parenting lark, I still buy Milky bars for myself, I love Capri Sun and Dairylea snack boxes, I get way too excited for Christmas and I still love to watch The Simpsons, Horrid Henry and other cartoons. I guess age just is a number! 

Oh and I bought a replacement birthday cake yesterday when I was in town. I feel so silly for being a drama queen. Happy birthday to me!

16 comments :

  1. Happy Birthday, since I hit 40 I’ve become less of a people pleaser too. Changed my hair and clothes and generally doing what I want!

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  2. Yay! Happy Birthday...and you know what, I think you've a good 20 years before that grown up feeling hits..haha, I know it hasn't hit me yet. I can be as stroppy as teenager, and get crushes on stars just like I did when I was 20, age really is just a number. I loved my 40s, so enjoy! xx

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  3. Aww that's just lovely. Happy birthday lovely xx

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  4. Happy birthday and hope you have a wonderful day X

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  5. Happy birthday! I'm glad you got another cake, everyone should have cake. I hope it is a good day :) xx

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  6. Hope you've had the happiest of birthdays! It's funny how turning 40 can change our attitudes, isn't it? Xx

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  7. Happy birthday ! I was reading nodding along with you and I've got almost ten years on you, so you don't need to grow up for a while ! LOVE your hair ! :)

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  8. Hope you've had a wonderful birthday Kim - how lovely to have 40 little presents to open and I'm glad you ordered another cake! I'm with you on being less patient and being more comfortable in my own skin but a love of doing housework still has yet to hit me! And I often feel like I am winging this adulting lark too. Glad it isn't just me! :-)

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  9. I could have written this! Haha. I'm so glad you had such an amazing birthday and that all turned out well in the end. I'm not far behind you! And I am so telling Craig I want 40 presents.
    PS - I will never grow up either. I still get excited at Smiths Snaps crisps! ;) xx

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  10. Happy Birthday! I dreaded turning 40 (and 30, must be any birthday ending in an 0!) so it’s good to hear that you embraced it. I hope you enjoyed your day and opening up your 40 presents xx #MMBC

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  11. What a lovely post. 40 definitely suits you, in all the ways! #mmbc

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  12. Belated birthday wishes - sending lots of cake 🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂 enjoy your celebrating

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  13. Happy Birthday! Glad you were able to enjoy it in the end. Very impressed by the 40 presents! That picture of you at the top with the red hard is particularly fabulous to boot. Good luck with the continuing of saying no!

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  14. 40 presents?! What an excellent idea - I might steal that one for my 40th next year! Happy birthday! #MMBC

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