Sunday 14 October 2018

Never Doing That Again! #Blogtober18

Throughout October I will be joining in with Big Family Organised Chaos and her linky for Blogtober18. Today's prompt is: Never Doing That Again!

Never doing that again text with pink baby clothes on a washing line.
People still ask me if I am going to have anymore children. I think people don't realise that I am nearly 40. (I do look young for my age). I got asked for ID to buy a bottle of wine a few weeks ago. lol Age doesn't matter though, people are having babies way older than I am. Good on them. I just don't want to.

There are times where I do think I would want another baby. I ordered the wrong wet wipes a few weeks ago and we ended up with fragranced ones which actually smelled like new babies. I see people pregnant and having babies and I think I could do it again but to be honest I really can't be bothered.

First up there would be the getting pregnant. Obviously I would have to get my contraceptive implant removed which would mean a return to the heavy, painful periods which could last over a week until I fell pregnant. While I've had the implant in I rarely have periods. If I do they last a couple of days and are barely there. 

Secondly you all know the story about my girls and myself having heart defects. (Our CHD Story) We all have heart problems which resulted in both my girls having open heart surgery. The specialists at the hospital have said that if I have another girl it's almost sure that she would have a heart problem too. The problems my girls had were easy to fix. We might not be so lucky next time. It has been said that if I have a boy he might be OK and have no heart problems but it really isn't worth the risk. 

Also what would I do with a boy. I know nothing about boys. Little boys scare me which seems so stupid to say but they do. All I have ever known is girls. I have had over 16 years of just thinking girls.

Then there would be the giving birth.....I have a Bicornuate uterus (heart shaped) and run the risk of the baby being breech. After having two c-sections I would need another so I'm told. The thought of one terrifies me after having Ellie.

When I had Ellie it all went wrong. The spinal shot they'd put in my back started to wear off. I could feel them pulling, cutting and whatever they were doing! Not just the sensation of them doing stuff, the actually feeling and it did not feel good at all. They were filling me with drugs but I was just passing in and out of consciousness so I'm told. I just remember panicking, being in pain and a really strange taste in my mouth. When the surgeons were convinced I could feel something (I think they thought I was just panicking for no reason) They said if they need to could they put me under I would of agreed to anything to stop the pain. More drugs were pumped into me and they were finished before they had to knock me out. It was one of the worst experiences of my life. The panic and the pain. I could not go through that again.

My girls are 16 and 11 years old. We are at the stage now where they can just about get themselves ready for school on a morning, cook basic meals, I can nip to the shop without them even noticing and they sleep in! Hooray! Why would I want a baby who is dependent on me and wakes me up several times a night.

My baby days are over. Well until my girls have grandchildren. Then I can get my baby fix and then give them back when I have had enough. hehehe


  1. I can understand why you dont want anymore kids

  2. I know what you mean about boys. I'm very pleased to have two girls of my own. Sorry to read about your birth experiences. #mmbc

  3. People still ask me and I've reached the point where being polite has left me haha.
    Your birth experience sounds hidious .Sorry you went through that.

  4. It certainly sounds like you're 'done'. I on the other hand...!! #MMBC

  5. I am totally with you on this! Your last birth sounds terrible, I definitely wouldn't go through another birth, after that x

  6. OMG it's unreal how much we have in common. I had the same trouble with my first baby; the spinal was wearing off and and I could feel everything. The doctor kept telling me to stop moving my legs (I couldn't move my legs when they first gave me the epidural so that was proof it was wearing off) and he was getting really annoyed with me. They gave me morphine and gas and air to try and calm me down and mentioned putting me to sleep but they got Aiden out before they had chance to put me to sleep. It was a horrible experience.
    It's surprising to me even now that I decided to have more children after that! Especially as the needle broke in my back when giving me the injection for my second c-section. I ended up having another surgery to remove it. Only Ella's birth was trouble free (planned section rather than emergency) but as soon as she was born I knew I didn't want anymore babies, our family was complete!

  7. I think having two children is perfectly fine. I had two and they were 16 and 17 before I had another child. I'd had a difficult birth with my first but the second was a breeze and I'd always wondered what it would be like to have another. When I met Graham he hadn't had any children and said he would like one of his own, and we ended up having three. The youngest wasn't planned and I was 44 when I had him, but I wouldn't change that for the world now. x

  8. It took me a long time to get there but I am in the same place and it feels so good :)

  9. Not surprised you wouldn't go down that path again. Your girls are lovely and, as you say, there are always grandchildren. I had a boy after two girls and it did feel like starting from scratch again. Would not be without any of them. #MMBC

  10. I am with you on this one. I love my kids, but my baby days are over. Mine are 13 and 20, so I am able to do a lot more by myself now which is nice.